Hebrew 11:1 tells us that Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen.
Today I took what is perhaps the biggest leap of faith since agreeing to marry Chocolate! I resigned from my job after 18 years without having the security of another job.
I know you’re probably thinking; Who does that? Let me assure you this was not an impulsive decision at all, if anything, it was probably long overdue!
Every day I pray for God to order my steps according to HIS will, in particularly in regard to the future of my career. God answered my prayers last year and I knew then what I needed to do. Instead of doing what he told me, I continued to stay in my comfort zone.
I admittedly was not content in my current role but I was allowing myself to be held captive for a paycheck when God had already told me my season at this company was over. 😕
I have been on leave since the end of March allowing myself a period of rest and restoration after dealing with some health issues that I have endured for years that I put off as I focused on my job. In the beginning of my leave, I again started to wonder what was next, God spoke and said to be still, that this was a time of rest, so I did until I had my surgery on 5/18.
In July, I started casually looking to see what other opportunities were in the world for me and as I prayed yet again for God to order my steps, he said to let go of my current job to allow room for a new blessing, and again I did not. I needed a new job before I could let go of my current one, it’s a reasonable request, right? 🙄
I felt like I was offering a compromise and he was not. Why was it so important that I let go of my current job before I can even get a glimpse of what is to come? I was confused, questioning and afraid, so I made plans to return to work on 8/28.
After Sunday’s sermon that I wrote about in my post titled “Moving Forward In The Midst of Chaos” I knew there was no way I could go back. Rev. Harris specifically said, “God took you out of that position for a reason, don’t you go back!” God was yelling at my hardheaded self at that point! All I could say was Lord I hear you! 😉
I came home on Sunday, listened to the sermon again online, talked to Chocolate and surrendered all to God’s plans! This is another example of when the “need” for your spouse comes into necessity. I need his support to say it’s ok to give up your income, it’s ok to step out of faith, I have your back, I support you! (Inserts Jill Scott’s scream in Why Did I Get Married when telling her girlfriends in the bathroom about her husband!) He is absolutely what I prayed for! ♥
So today, I tendered my resignation, then picked up my iPad to read a book while I await what’s next!
How do I feel now?… I feel invincible! I feel obedient! I feel faithful!
“More” By Ted Winn Comes to mind to close this out .. “ I want to give my best to you, I want to do what you ask me to, I want to go wherever you say, say the word and I’ll obey, I want to live a life that’s real, I want to serve you Lord for real, for you deserve all of this and more, so I give you MORE!”