Afflictions Part 2
What was I going to do about it?
Would I wallow in self-pity and feel like less than a woman for not being able to do things with natural progression. YES!.. actually Hell YES!
I gave myself a couple of days before I dried my tears and lifted my head back up to stand tall!
Topics like infertility are still somewhat considered to be “taboo”, they’re things people are ashamed of and don’t wish to speak on but I am NOT ashamed!
This affliction.. that my body has sustained all these years is NOT who I am!
We have to remember to separate what we go through from who we are. Do challenging times help shape us? Absolutely! But they do not define us!
My husband has been by my side through it all and while I’ll spare y’all the details just know it has been quite the adventure and I never really thought he was paying that much attention or if he believed the pain was as unbearable as it was until one day after a doctor’s appointment he told me that he always knew I was a strong woman but never knew how strong I am until that moment as he reflected on all that I had endured and how I battled on with my head high.
He feels that it’s unfair that I’ve had to go through so much and then to learn that becoming parents will require many more prayers and a lot of money to come into fruition.
He says he is thankful that I am able to process things in the manner in which I do because my family, himself and all those that love me would not have been prepared for my spirit to be in defeat.
The truth of the matter is I know he could’ve handled it, God would have provided him all that he needed to redirect me and to lift my spirit. His love covers me!
He keeps me encouraged just by being his Chocolate self! Everyday, I am very thankful for him, being his wife is truly one of God’s greatest favors on my life!!
Even if we never expand our family, I got him and he’s got me too! (Yep, Babyface!)
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