I have been away from blogging for almost a month.

During this time of leave my family has endured one of life’s hardest battles; the loss of a sweet baby girl.
My niece Kinsley Jolie was born on September 1st to mommy; Jessie, daddy; Terrance, and big sister; Kylee, along with a lot of other family members who loved her dearly.

2 weeks after she was born she was rushed to the emergency room from her 4th doctor’s appointment with concern for her breathing, the E.R. team at Inova Prince William immediately identified there was something wrong with her heart and had her medevacked to Inova Children’s where she was treated under the careful care of that team before being transferred to Children’s National for further care.
After weeks of great progress,on Thursday November 2nd we learned that her prognosis had taken a drastic turn and we were now facing her impending departure from her physical life here on earth and on November 8th at just 2 months old our sweet baby girl went home to be with King Jesus! 💔
Proverbs 3:5 tell us “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding”. This single verse has provided me with acceptance. Acceptance for that of which I cannot control and for that which I should not question.
I really had to challenge myself with this y’all, I cannot even lie, I went to God in prayer, in text, in song and everything kept coming back to this text in Proverbs. I heard God ask if I trust him.
The answer is YES, with my whole heart!
However, Kinsley’s complete healing was my heart’s desire and since Psalms 37:3-4 says “3. Trust in the LORD and do good; Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness. 4. Delight yourself in the LORD; And He will give you the desires of your heart.” I could not understand why my heart’s desire was not fulfilled.
I needed discernment, I needed answers Lord! And they came..
Kinsley is healed! She is whole! Her heart is strong, just not on this side! When I was praying I was praying for my selfish desires and not for God’s will which is where I led myself astray.
I wanted Kinsley here with her parents, big sister and the rest of us when God already had a plan and purpose for her life.
Kinsley inspired us all as she was counted out time and time again and left us all in amazement as she overcame obstacle after obstacle. She was more than a conqueror.
It’s so hard to let go in times of death, especially when they’re this young. I had to remind myself and those who would listen that everything we own belongs to God and he lends them to us for safe keeping so when someone passes away we are giving them back to him.
On November 6th Terrance & Jessie had Kinsley baptized, giving her life to God!

Truth is; Kinsley was never ours! She was always God’s and just like with you and I, before she was born in the book a life there was a sunrise date and a sunset date already written.
I can’t say that the pain of her loss is lessened by these things but understanding them does provide peace of mind!
Her assignment here on earth was short, yet her fighting spirit will be carried with us all for the rest of our days.
Kinsley’s life reminded me that no matter what man says, God has the final say! So never let anyone limit what you can or cannot do,for they are not in control.
For the rest of my life, when I come up against obstacles, I will think of the resilience in her 7 pounds and fight through it, just as she did.
My brother shared with me that when Kinsley passed Jessie was kissing her head and telling her by name of all the people that loved her so I will close with that too.
To our sweet angel,
Mommy loves you, Daddy loves you, Sissy loves you, Grandma J loves you, Grandma V loves you, Grammy loves you, TT loves you, Uncle P loves you, Uncle Curtis loves you, Uncle TJ loves you, Aunt Alicia loves you, Uncle Stacy loves you, Aunt Crystal loves you, Aunt Shannan loves you, all of your cousins; Taeya, CJ, Kendra, Nique, Kaydince, Layla, Harmony and Lukey love you as well as so many others!
One Sweet day,we see you again, until then we will forever carry you in our hearts!❤