Have you ever sat alone in a room, feeling lost and weighing options of a tough or life-changing decision you need to make, and you sit contemplating, afraid of disappointing God with your decision? If not, this post is not for you!

In this song Yolanda Adams brings us a heartfelt plea that we all have had… if you have not had this plea, live a little longer, there shall come a time..

I remember a time Chocolate & I were considering separating and I would sit and listen to this song. I did not want to give up on my marriage but I did not want to continue down the path we were on either.
It took real…raw…and at times hurtful conversations to get us through those times.
Those conversations were necessary and a turning point for us.

We both agreed that we were committed to each other and the covenant that was established on 10.10.10 when we were married.
To move forward from that space we were in, we had to first step back and create a plan to get us through the days, months and years ahead because more than likely, we would be here again. Not necessarily in divorce talk, but at a cross road where we had to be sure we are both moving in the same direction.

I remind him and myself all the time that the devil’s mission is to steal, kill and destroy.. He steals our joy at times when we should be thankful, he kills our spirit and creates uncertainty and doubt where God has already put an exclamation mark❗
He destroys marriages, that has residual effects on families and communities when God has joined 2 people together to create strong families and communities.
When we acknowledge that just like God, the devil is real, we can arm and prepare ourselves for his attacks.
Think about your weaknesses, that is where he attacks.

An area of weakness for me is my health, I need to do better, I will do better! There has been times when I feel like my body is betraying me and I ask myself why is it doing this and that when the truth of the matter is I’m the one mistreating it, I can better shield myself from ailments by eating healthier, drinking more water and exercising so that my defense system is stronger, instead I allow distractions and quick options to deter me away from doing and eating the right things.

One of my husband’s areas of weakness is time management, he allows for distractions to fill his day leaving little to no time for me and then I have to remind him that I AM his first priority! And we live happily ever after, just kidding….😁
What really happens is I throw a tantrum, make him feel bad, he buys me something sparkly and we’re all good from there.
Still kidding.. lol😀

Honestly, I have learned that I cannot let my frustrations build and then dump them on him all at once, it’s not fair to him or myself.
Instead I consistently plan time for us each week and if he neglects to get home at our agreed upon time or spends his time consumed with other things like his phone or whatever is on tv, I let him know it’s not ok and share for the thousandth (and counting) time that his presence is required in our marriage.
What I know is his distractions are not intentional and I have to be patient with him as he is patient with me with whatever imaginary shortcomings he sees in me.😄

What’s important is that we keep the lines of communication open as we both continue to evolve and be the best versions of ourselves for and with each other.

Don’t be afraid to ask God to guide you until you’re sure when life is cloudy, listen for that word from God that you are asking for and then go forward with purpose. You cannot disappoint God, he knows your heart!❤